I know I haven't written much lately, been kinda lazy and sleeping alot. I call it hibernating. I realized that I am a sleep scientist and what I have been doing so much of lately is just studying sleep. That's what I do. I study sleep. Oh whatever, that's what I'm saying and I'm sticking with it, no matter what anyone thinks or says. Hey, at least I'm getting plenty of sleep. And this summer when we are out on the road going to places like WI or whatever, it will be too damn hot to sleep much. So I'm banking my sleep time, right? Shoot I know I can't fool anyone but it's really not a problem. I can sleep when I feel like it, can't I? Sometimes I sleep longer than other times. Most of the time I try to be up when there are others here that are up. See, I don't walk too well and it's very hard for me to get around my house and to get meals and drinks. I do the best I can but with a little help from my Husband or my son, I go alright. I know that somehow I will get better, I am getting better. I know my hair is starting to grow again, something it really hasn't done in 4 or 5 years and my fingernails are strong and grow too fast now. So I know I'm getting better. It's just so slow. I guess it took longer than a couple of years for me to get as sick as I was before my surgery, so I keep telling myself to be more patient, everything happens for a reason and in its own time too.
I do check my email and I have been getting all your comments. They truely do help me and I am so very thankful to all of you who send your good wishes and energies my way. I so needed it too. I have been so sad lately. I belong to a Pagan group that is based in Lynchburg, VA, I know home of Jerry Falwell and Liberty University and the Moral Majority. Blah, Blah, Blah... Anyway, a very young and beautiful woman with 3 young children and a husband passed away to the Summerland week before last. She had a very rare and agressive form of breast cancer. She was diagnosed in July 06 and she fought so hard to win her battle but it took her so fast. She came to my wedding last May. During the service, the three forms of woman give us gifts, Heather's gift as the Mother to us was a beautiful handmade wand. And now she is gone.
I tried to upload a picture of her to my blog but it's not working. I think the picture is too big and I just don't know how to make it smaller.
It's so sad. Brian and I went to her funeral celebration. It was a Pagan based ritual and so very beautiful. Lots of carnations and candles. Paula, our high priestess and the lady who performed our Handfasting service back in May, performed the funeral ritual for our friend, Heather. The quarters were called, the circle was smudged with sage and made sacred. The ritual was very beautiful and then a couple of people, her sister and a couple of others read poems and said things about Heather. I was doing pretty well until Heather's oldest child, Regina came over and sat on her Daddy's lap and they just hugged each other and cried. I just about lost it right there. That was so hard. Heather and Denny's 3 beautiful daugthers, the oldest is going to be 11 in Oct., I think. The other two are little girls too, one's 4 and the other one is only 3. It's so hard to lose a parent when you are so young, I'm sure. Heather was only 35 years old. Makes me all the more thankful for all that I have and I am such a lucky woman for sure. I am so thankful to have so very much to be thankful for. I may not have money, but I have all that I need and I have so much love, both to take and to give. Ok everybody, dry your eyes and look at someone you love tonight and be thankful. I love you all and I am so thankful for all of you out there. Take care of yourselves, you are important.

It's Pizza and a movie night with my son, Shawn tonight! We are watching "The Wickerman" on pay for view. I've been wanting to see this one for some time now. It would be nice it people would stop calling and dropping by here tonight. I was hoping for a night with just me and Shawn. Brian went out to Awful Arthur's to catch a band but I really just didn't want to go out. It's too cold out for me, makes me bones ache. So I figured it would be a good oppertunity for me and Shawn to have some time to ourselves to eat pizza and rent a movie. We've been watching a collector's car auction alot too. He loves the old cars, the muscle cars. It's very interesting to watch. The commentators tell you about the cars and all, so you can also learn a lot about the cars.
Anyway, I'm going to go now and watch this movie with my son.

Yes Peeps it's that time again and no I don't have Altzies again for the third week in a row... which means it's time for FRIDAY FRENZY QUESTIONS!!!!!

Okay ready? Set! Go!!!!!

1. Chocolate Chip or Peanut Butter?
Chocolate chip of course
2. Where is your favorite place in the world to be?
any place my family is
3. What is your shoe size?
10 or 11 depends on the shoe
4. How many times have you been in love?
many times, I thought it was love, actually I've only been in love once
5. Do you wear your watch on your left or right wrist?
don't wear one but if I did, it would be on the left one
6. Is your hair long or short? What color is it?
long, strawberry blonde
7. Do you have a Best Friend?
yes, my Husband
8. How old were you the first time you kissed?
16 years old
9. How tall are you?
5'3"
10. Name something fun you do?
I like to go to campout music festivals and listen to hippie music
11. When was the last time you went to a zoo?
about 4 years ago, Hershey Pa
12. Name a song you remember from hearing on the radio when
you were a kid?
I wanna hold your hand by the Beatles
13. What was the last movie you saw at a theater?
Rein of Fire
14. Describe your favorite shoes?
All my favorite shoes are Crocs, I have black ones, purple ones, lime green ones, light blue ones, and pink ones that look like sandals
15. What is your favorite fast food joint?
Long John Silver's

1. How many TV's do you have in your home?
3
2. Do you keep the resolutions you make?
I try not to make any
3. What would you say is your best feature?
looks wise, my hair and my nose
4. Have you ever had a wet willy? What about a wet wilma?
yes to a wet willy but I'm not sure about a wet wilma
5. How many hours of television do you watch in a week?
who knows, my tv is on all day long, as long as I'm up.
6. Do you have any regrets?
nope, well yeah, one, I regret the day my oldest son met one of his girl friends, Cassie
7. When is the last time you whispered sweet somethings in someone's ear?
Ahhhh, I like to do that on a daily basis
8. What is your least favorite color?
the color hospitals used to use in their operating rooms, it's a light green
9. When is the last time you went to an amusement park?
it's been a couple of years, went to Hershey Park in PA. James Taylor was playing there, it was an awesome show. I think maybe it was 2003.
10. Name someone you looked up to as a kid other than your parents.
Mr. and Mrs. Hauser, Bob and Ernie Hauser, they were so cool and I loved them so much.
11. Do you sunbathe in the summer months?
not any more, I used to and I hated every boring ass minute of it too.
12. What is your favorite animal?
I love Pandas and Dolphins. I also love cats and dogs!
13. Do you exercise? What do you do?
I like to exercise my powers of observation! I look at things.
14. What is your favorite morning cereal?
I love oatmeal, plain or brown sugar, cinnamon
15. Do you drink Gaterade? What flavor?
no, yuck
16. Candlelight or moonlight?
love both
17. Favorite CD at the moment?
I don't know, I let my Husband take care of music, he's very good at it.
18. Do you own stuffed animals?
yes and lots of them too
19. M&M's or Snickers bar?
M&M's, just plain M&Ms will do
20. Would you ever visit a nudist beach?
yea, probably not
There ya go. I did it, I answered all of them or at least I tried too and I only fudged a little bit on a couple of them. Sometimes some of these questions require some thinking and man, that's a hard thing to do when you are me, ok? Well, once again, that's my story and I'm sticking to it!