Well, I see everyone is getting ready for the up coming holidays and celebrations. I too have been working hard to get ready. I do hope the Yule will go smoother and better than Thanksgiving did. I've been sick with a cold for a week or more. I tried to sleep it off at first. Then I got Brian to get me some pineapple juice and that helped me so much. If you ever get a sore throat and cough, I highly recommend 100% unsweetened Pineapple juice, canned or fresh. Fresh is best but canned will do if it's the only thing you can get. But believe me, the stuff works like magic. Don't drink orange juice, or anyother citrus juice only pineapple. It's the best.
I try my best to stay away from antibiotics and only use them when nothing else will work. That way if and when I do need them, maybe they will actually work for me.
I'm still a little weak from being sick. My energy levels become depleted very quickly but I'm still trying and when I'm really feeling the tireness, I take myself to bed. I'm trying to get myself into some sort of schedule for my sleeping. Going to bed earlier and getting up earlier and while I'm up I try to get something accomplished. I've managed in the last couple of days to finish all our Xmas gift shopping, filled out 45 Xmas cards to Family and various friends and associates and made up the menu for the meals and the lists of whatelse we need to get or do to be ready. I have a cake to make for Pinns' Birthday. I think Shawn is going to bake the cake. We are having a smoked ham, that Shawn is going to smoke for us, stuffing, creamed mashed potatoes, baby carrots, corn bread and rolls and I'm going to try to have sliced cheddar cheese, pickles, and different mustards. Yummy, sounds good. I hope my Momma will like it. Brian got Mom a leather recliner from Sam's Club for Xmas. I was afraid she wouldn't like it. In fact the first thing she said about it was, it's vinyl, isn't it? I knew she wouldn't want it if it was like that and it isn't so I told her, no, Momma, it's all leather. She was really surprised but once it got set up for her,...well, I think she really does like it. That makes me feel really good. Sometimes all I really want is to make her happy, so I guess, I can look at it like this, I got my Xmas gift from her this year, she has made me very happy by being happy with the things I was able to get for her. It's hard to buy something for someone who has everything and what she needs most, I can't give her or I can't afford to give it to her.
I like to find silly, funky or frilly things for my Mother-in-Law. She has problems with her toes and can only wears flip-flops. I found her a pair of pink fuzzy ones with a big heart shaped diamond right where the thong goes between the toes. They are so funky and cool. I can just see her giggling over them. We also got her a patchwork skirt and an purple shirt from India and some Patuloui oil.
My darn arm is hurting and getting so tired. I keep mispelling things. I may have to stop and rest for awhile and see what's up with everyone. That's what I've been doing lately, reading all your blogs and sometimes leaving a short comment or two. I've been too worn out to do much more.

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What a strange week it has been and not in a good way either. I'm not sure where to start. Saturday, November 24th was the aniversary of the death of my Father. A couple of days later, a friend of mine, Betty, called to say she heard that our friend, Jackie had lost her brother on Saturday. I found out she was right. He was only 38 years old. Of course, there will be an autopsy and a toxicology report, which will take up to a month but they think it was alcohol poisoning. They say there was some chemical that was very high in his blood and it's found in moonshine. What a shame, he leaves behind a very nice girl friend and a baby too. From what my friend, his sister says he was trying to do better with his life so he could be there to take care of his baby and his girl friend. Life changes so quickly sometimes.
Then yesterday, I had an appointment to see my pain management doctor to review my medications. I got there and there was this Indian guy and this lady who looked like she was very well off, dripping in diamonds and black fur in my doctor's waiting room talking to one another. The man told me the doctor wasn't in and wasn't coming in. I tried to ask him what was going on, was Dr. Kim ok and how I hope she was ok and all and all he said was so did they and for me to call next Tuesday and things would be all worked out. I felt that something was wrong or something was very wierd going on. Well, when I got home I got on my puter and looked in the Roanoke Newspaper in the obituaries just to make sure she wasn't you know, passed on. Well, I had to look in the archives and I'm praying I don't find her there but there she is. Dr. Ae-Sik Kim, passed away on November 12th, only about two weeks after my last appointment with her. I have been freaking out. She seemed just fine the last time I saw her. What could have happened? Today, the thought had been bugging me so much so I went back to the Newspaper and checked the archives of the articles to see if they had done any articles in the paper about what happened to her. I found six articles about what had happened. Not only did she die but her husband had died too. He died four days after she did and they think it was the same thing...food born Botulism. They said in the paper her case is the first case of food born Botulism since 2002. I'm going to miss her. Dr. Kim was an angel, so sweet and kind. Sometimes when I would go to see her, I'd be all depressed and thinking I would never get any better and she would tell me that she knew I was going to get better, she said she had faith it would happen, that with my good attitude and hard work, she knew I was going to be alright, all I needed to do was be patient and keep on trying. Life changes so fast.
I know I haven't been posting much lately on here. My only excuse is I've been so tired so all I've been doing is reading and maybe commenting every now and then. My depression has been bad too. Sometimes I just don't get it. Before they did my surgery, I felt so helpless, so I gave it up to my Creator. I said it's up to you, Creator, either you will take me or let me live, what ever your will is I will accept it. I asked My Creator to use me for his or her needs. So I lived and it's three years later and I still can't walk they way I need to and I'm still in so much pain everyday and I still need full time help from my husband and my son, so how am I doing what the Creator wants for me? It really makes me so depressed to think about it. I wonder why am I still here and what do I do now? I'm sorry for venting so much but that is part of what I wanted to write this blog for. I just don't like to be a complainer or a bitchy person. Thank you to all who have left me the wonderful comments lately. You guys are all the best!