Well, the new tank is looking great, the new fish have settled in very nicely. They have told us their names are OJ ( for Ozzie Jr.), Slip and Slide are the two big snails, Thing 1 and Thing 2 are the two channel catfish and the little stow-away snails is Oopsey, because soon there will be lots of little oopsies all over the place.
We are having a lot of fun watching the new setup. Thing 1 likes to hang out inside the Pagoda a lot. Slip and Slide have checked things out pretty well and perfer to hang out near the top of the tank next to the filter. Right now Slip is hanging out at the top in the front, so I can see him very well. I'm not sure where Slide and Oopsey are. Beaver and Sami are happy as they can be, swimming all around. I've never seen Beaver be so active before. As soon as I can get around to it, my Daddy used to have one of those, I'm gonna take some pictures and try to get them on here. Just be patient, it won't take me too long.
Got up early today, went to bed early last night. I wanted to stay up and call Schree, but I was just too tired I slept very well, B went to bed the same time I did, that always makes me sleep better. We've got a king size bed, it has massage and is also adjustable. It's one of those Swedish Tempurepedic mattresses and yes, folks it is da bomb. There we are, me, B and Jerry and Cesar all in the bed, but you can't see Cesar, because he is under a pile of quilts. It's a good thing I don't move much in my sleep, of course B is another story. I've had to pull Cesar out from under him a few times, cause Cesar won't wake up and move. It does seem like if it was bothering him, he would get up and move but still I worry about him. He's so tiny, little blanket worm.
Wow, that just scared the shit out of me! My heart is still going pretty fast from it. I heard a loud pow from my backyard, made my heart skip a beat or two and then race to catch up. Then I remembered Shawn had made a little bomb and he was in the backyard trying to blow up an empty cookie can. Geez, that scared the crap out of me. My kids are demolitions experts. I don't know where they get this from. I don't blow stuff up, I don't set fire to things, but my kids do. Shawn set fire to the back of my new stationwagon, Aaron set the woods out back on fire and they both tried to torch their Grandparents' house next door! When Shawn came in here the other night with his little homemade bomb, all I said was, all I ask is that you set it off in the daytime when we are all awake and he said, ok. So at least he listened to me, right? Well, it's not like he does this all the time or nothing, if he did, I would have to get him some help because that would be a real problem, now wouldn't it?
I watched the movie Ray today. It was a very good movie. I learned a lot about Ray Charles that I never knew. I didn't know his last name was Robertson, I didn't know he had a little brother that died right in front of him, I didn't know he was ever addicted to Heroin and that he beat it cold turkey. It made me cry, I just couldn't stop crying. I'm not really sure why. Maybe it's because I wish I would have had the motivation that he had, not the exact kind of course. But the way there was somebody looking out for him. Every time he needed to make a change in his life, his little brother or his mother was right there, giving him the motivation and a clue that something needed to happen and the only one that could make the thing happen was him. I just don't get the clues given to me in the same way that he did. But I think the one thing that makes me so sad is that I wish my son, Aaron would have been given those clues. Maybe things would have turned out different for him. I don't know.
Now we are watching the playoffs Washington and Seattle. B is a big Redskin fan, and loves to watch all football. He says we're living in a NFL world. He has six favorite teams, the Skins are his favorite and he is very happy they have made it to the playoffs. I hope they will do well and move on to the next games. It would be pretty cool if they get to go to the superbowl and even cooler if they win it, at least for B. I'm a Packer fan, they are done for the season, Oh well, I'm not really into football all that much anyway.
I think I'll go check out what's going on in the stream. I love to swim in the stream, you never know who you will meet. Had fun chasing Ice and the other guys around with the Purse Posse. So let's see who's doing what now.

Sami and Beaver have a new home! It's very spacious, and so pretty. They are so very happy together. They even have some new room mates too. An Ozzy, jr., 2 albino channel catfish, 2 golden snails and one small stow-away snail. Yep, Shawn and I went out to the Pet Aquatic Warehouse in Lynchburg, VA and did us some serious shopping. We got a 20 gal. fish tank and all the fixings, purple gravel, filters, pumps and all. We even got a pagoda and some live plants too. It looks so great. Shawn has worked all evening, since we got home, setting it all up. It's so beautiful, he did a great job and I am very pleased. I can't stop looking at them, they look so happy in there now. We took Cesar with us. He had a blast. Everyone was petting him and asking what kind of dog he is and everything and he was eating it all up. Loving every minute of it. By the time we started on the road home, he was plumb tuckered out. He slept most of the way home and then as soon as I got into my chair, he was ready to crash. All he wanted was my lap and a blanket to crawl under and that as they say was all she wrote. We got home around 9:30 pm and now it's like 5 am and he's only been off my lap once in all that time. He's just barely awake now, only because Shawn made us a pizza to eat and pizza is his favorite food of all. I'll take some pictures later and try to post them on here.
Well, good morning all, have a great day! Ya'll keep the blogstream flowing while us night owls take our winter naps.

I have recieved word tonight of the death of one of my neighbor's sons. This indeed very sad. His name is Rick Burk, Jr. I'm not sure how old he is but I know he is about the same age as my oldest son would be if he was still alive. Rick was married and had 3 small children. He had a set of twins but one of the twins passed away soon after birth. Rick was a good guy. Rick and my son, Aaron went to school together, where they fought quite a lot. Rick was bigger and more athletic than Aaron and Aaron,like my Father always said, had a hummingbird ass and an allegator mouth. After High School, Rick and my son became good friends. That's how I really got to know Rick. He was always kind and polite to me. He was very repectful and he had a great sense of humor and seemed to love to laugh. He never minded doing favors for you, he was a good friend. I haven't seen him for awhile. I heard he was doing well with his job and all. And then tonight some of the kids came by to let me know what had happened to him. He got his first paycheck on this new job and it was pretty fat, so he decided to treat himself to a little some thing only it wasn't good, he got some cocaine. I heard right after the very first line he did, one whole side of his heart just blew up. Now my friend, my son's friend, three small children's Father, someone's husband, and someone's son are all lost. Life goes on for me, Aaron and Rick are having a good time doing whatever they want to do in the spirit realm somewhere, but the Family, My heart knows the raw aching pain of the gaping hole left in their hearts and their lives and all I can do is pray for them all. All I can say is time heals all wounds, even the ones that you think you will never get past. I do hope Rick's Dad will be alright. I don't know if he is married or seeing someone, I think it would be so hard to go through losing your grown child alone. I am so thankful that B was with me all through that terrible, dark time. If not for B and Shawn, I don't think I would have made it. A good support base is essential to survival in such a low time. Some people have told me that I am so strong, maybe I am and maybe I just do what I know I have to do. Thank the Goddess and the Creator for Shawn and for B!
White candles for Rick to light his path and make the going easier. Rick, you too are now a Spirit Warrior! AHO!

What do I know about me? I know I'm a hippy at heart and I just can't deny it. I know I always look for the good in all the people I meet and come into contact with. I know that one of my main purposes in life is to lift others up spiritually, mentally. I know I love to eat seafood. I know I love dogs and cats. I know I love my sons and my Mom and Dad and my fiance, Brian. I know I am truely and unconditionally loved by all these people and that's the way that I love them. I know I love my Mother-in-Law the same way. I know I have a lot of love in my heart to give and I know that I get a lot of love from a lot of different places. I know I am a good person and I make a good friend. I know that my health is not good and there maybe nothing I can do to change it, so I know that I will just have to deal with it. I know that laughter is the best medicine. I know I don't like to say mean things to people and would perfer to say nothing if the only thing I can think of is not nice. I know I love to talk to people, all kinds of people. I know I like to help people by listening and talking to them. I know I love Blogstream and all the people on it, even the ones that are in pain or anger. I know that no one is perfect, including myself and that's ok. I know that words can have two meanings, and misunderstandings happen all the time. I know that I am a very sensitive person and I cry a lot. I know that life goes a lot smoother if you don't sweat the small stuff. I know that there are times I let sarcasm creep into my voice and I can see how it hurts the ones I love. I know I hate hospitals and pain and sickness. I also know that if not for a hospital full of Doctors and Nurses, I would not be here now, I would have died more than a year ago. I know that there will be good times and bad times ahead.

Welcome 2006! I want to wish everybody a very happy new year. I hope everyone had a great time and got where they were going in a safe way. I'd like to thank everyone who has taken the time to read my blog and especially I want to thank all of those who were kind enough to leave me a comment. Thank you all for your love and support. You all do make this a very magical experience for me. I hope that some of my comments have been in some way helpful and supportive too, as they were meant to be.
I don't usually make any new year's resolutions but this year, I am.
1. I will go see my Mother more often, in person.
2. I will have more fun.
3. I will have sex more often.
4. I will go out more often.
5. I will take better care of myself.
6. I will read more.
This is going to be a big year for me, lots of changes in store. My little boy is turning 18 and I'm getting married too! Wow, I think it is going to be a great year and I for one am glad we are finally in the year 2006! Bring it on! Man I got a lot to do. I wish you all could come to the wedding, it's going to be a blast! Two days of partying and live music and food! I can't wait, we are all getting excited about it. Soon my engagement ring will be ready. I'm having LifeGems make me a diamond from the ashes of my oldest son, Aaron. It's really expensive, but I told B it's the only way I would have a diamond. It makes it extra special. It's going to be a blue diamond and I am going to have it mounted in a bridal set that looks like a celtic knot. I like what Lucy was saying about her Irish ring, I can't remember how to spell what she called it but I'm sure you get my drift. I just might look into getting a couple of those too. I've seen them before, just didn't know what the story was behind the rings.
I've spent quite a bit of my time on here talking about my son, Aaron. I guess sometimes it all seems like it was just a dream and that he never really existed, so I want to talk about him and I wanted to write it down, so others can read it and maybe learn something from his mistakes and mine. And then I thought, you might want to know what he looked like. So I took a camera and took a picture of a picture of him and put it in my Blog. I think it turned out very nice. He would've hated it, but I don't care. Shawn hates me putting his picture on here too. Oh well, I love my boys and I am proud of them. I want to show them off. In fact, I am amazed that I could've given birth to not one but two beautiful, handsome, healthy boys. Aaron had a short life, but believe me, he lived it with feriousity(not sure if this is even a word, if it isn't, I apoligize Dock). My boy would have two girl friends at the same time and they knew about each other, in fact they all got into it with each other. I don't know many guys that got to live like that, do you? Yes, he lived fast and hard, like he knew his life wasn't going to be a long one. He'd try just about anything once, he even kissed a boy once on a dare.
In that picture, previous post, Aaron was on his way to meet me in Philadephia, Pa to see Phish. He was gonna ride the rest of the way with me and B as we went around the country going to shows and festivals. That was taken about 3 months berfore he died. Our buddy, Ken brought Aaron and his girl friend, Sherry and several other kids, not little ones, up from VA. B and I had come down from CT, The Gathering of the Vibes. Aaron didn't want to go to CT because he was afraid the law would pick him up and now that he was 18 they would be harder on him than last year, when he got picked up in CT for driving without a license and possesion of LSD. CT has never contacted me about this, so the only way I know about is from what Aaron told me himself. We had a great time in Philly together, I got some other pictures. If I can get my hands on them I will try to get them on here.
Well, New Year's eve was very quiet here. We played computer games, watched football and ate cheese balls and christmas cookies. Shawn was trying to fix my commode in the little bathroom, cause it had sprung a bit of a leak and B was taking a shower. B says he got out and looked at his watch and saw it was 12:00!!! He grabed a towel, hollared at Shawn, Get outta the way, Get outta the way!!!!!He came running into the living room with nothing but a towel on! He was early. He waited until the ball dropped and he dropped the towel and gave me a very hot kiss!!! He told Shawn not to look! So for New Year's I had a full bowl in one hand and a hand full of ass in the other and a smile on my face!!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!